just plain stupid

I feel: groggy and depressed
I’m humming: a sad song

Yesterday, I had a great time with Otoo-chan. I felt happy because I spent my afternoon and a part of my evening with him playing Warcraft and Battle Realms, riding in their Mitsubishi Adventure and walking at SM Southmall to escort her cousin searching for the perfect prom gown. Why happy? I haven’t spent my time with him that long. I missed him. Isn’t that easy to see?

Yes, there’s one more thing. I like him even though I always tell my friends that I treat him as my Otoo-chan (daddy). How I wish I could tell them the truth but things are such complicated matters. VERY COMPLICATED.

I have two very close friends who liked him. Each one did not know that the other one liked him. It’s such a difficult situation. If they just knew what I felt, it may result to a misunderstanding. I don’t want our friendship be ruined by a bloke.

Because I told Corinne that I’ve read a lot of text messages I wasn’t supposed to read in Otoo-chan’s SIM archive, she was forced to tell me the whole truth. She actually fancied him. She liked him. She loved him! Ouch!

What is with him? He always seems to attract all the girls he has gotten close with (which includes me -_-;). What is he anyway? Is he really human? Or did he hypnotize us? o.0

Another friend of mine from Mapua has been thinking of transferring to DLSU. I don’t know the real reason but I guess she wanted to be with him. Oh... A girl can go great distances for love... I guess she still likes him after a long time denying it was so.

Things are just getting worse for Corinne and *cough* me. I’ve just learned that he was exchanging text messages with Cams, his ex-girlfriend, for a week now. I suppose he still have those feelings for her. Ugh! Damn it! But I’ll have to accept that. That’s the true person he really is. A very loyal guy, he is indeed.

Why is it so hard to say the three words to that significant one? I love you! It’s so easy to write and to think of. I love you! Those who will receive it must be very happy. I love you! Why is it so arduous? Ugh!

I am such a stupid person falling for an amazing bloke who fails to see the ones that really, truly care for him. You blind, stupid idiot!

I guess I’ll have to keep searching for the right one. I won’t let my guard down and let our friendship be destroyed by just a guy.

Wish me luck. :P