just plain stupid

I feel: groggy and depressed
I’m humming: a sad song

Yesterday, I had a great time with Otoo-chan. I felt happy because I spent my afternoon and a part of my evening with him playing Warcraft and Battle Realms, riding in their Mitsubishi Adventure and walking at SM Southmall to escort her cousin searching for the perfect prom gown. Why happy? I haven’t spent my time with him that long. I missed him. Isn’t that easy to see?

Yes, there’s one more thing. I like him even though I always tell my friends that I treat him as my Otoo-chan (daddy). How I wish I could tell them the truth but things are such complicated matters. VERY COMPLICATED.

I have two very close friends who liked him. Each one did not know that the other one liked him. It’s such a difficult situation. If they just knew what I felt, it may result to a misunderstanding. I don’t want our friendship be ruined by a bloke.

Because I told Corinne that I’ve read a lot of text messages I wasn’t supposed to read in Otoo-chan’s SIM archive, she was forced to tell me the whole truth. She actually fancied him. She liked him. She loved him! Ouch!

What is with him? He always seems to attract all the girls he has gotten close with (which includes me -_-;). What is he anyway? Is he really human? Or did he hypnotize us? o.0

Another friend of mine from Mapua has been thinking of transferring to DLSU. I don’t know the real reason but I guess she wanted to be with him. Oh... A girl can go great distances for love... I guess she still likes him after a long time denying it was so.

Things are just getting worse for Corinne and *cough* me. I’ve just learned that he was exchanging text messages with Cams, his ex-girlfriend, for a week now. I suppose he still have those feelings for her. Ugh! Damn it! But I’ll have to accept that. That’s the true person he really is. A very loyal guy, he is indeed.

Why is it so hard to say the three words to that significant one? I love you! It’s so easy to write and to think of. I love you! Those who will receive it must be very happy. I love you! Why is it so arduous? Ugh!

I am such a stupid person falling for an amazing bloke who fails to see the ones that really, truly care for him. You blind, stupid idiot!

I guess I’ll have to keep searching for the right one. I won’t let my guard down and let our friendship be destroyed by just a guy.

Wish me luck. :P

good... no classes today

Boycott boycott boycott...

Endless boycott of classes...

I know our grades will suffer but we're doing is for our future. Who would want to graduate from an unknown college called Malayan? Ahh! Retain Mapua Institute of Technology!

Boycott boycott boycott...

I hope everything will be settled soon.

There are rumors that our sports editor and United Mapuans spokesperson, Kuya Gudo, has been expelled. I don't know if it's true or not. I hope it's not.

But according to Mrs. Montevirgen, our TNB adviser, he was already given a letter because of illegal assembly. The group United Mapuans is not a recognized organization in the Institute. The administration wrote that he should have filled out a form for org recognition and wait for 3 weeks for approval. Hello?! 3 weeks?! It's a very long time to wait! We have to act NOW before it's too late!

This is getting scary.

I want to go home and play more Sims. Haha... No, I'm more concerned about the school. Promise ^__^

Boycott boycott boycott...

Boycott until tomorrow. Rally on Thursday. It might be bloody or something like that, I guess. Bring it on! [I'm excited and scared at the same time.]

Oh God! Please help us! We've done all that we could. It's your turn to do the rest for us. *bow*

a day of realization

I was never pissed off that much in my life.

*shrug* I tried to keep my cool. I just can't. I guess I'm such an emotionally-charged person. Never can I act without my emotions. Easily blinded by emotions. Impulsively controlled by immaturity.

Can I help myself?

I wish I could.

There is a way. But it won't be easy. [sounds like Coach Murakami from Hungry Heart ^__^]

Lurking in the past can't do something now. I've flooded the bodega log book a while ago at the office. I let it out in a stinking story full of outbursts of emotion. Sorry, bodega people for what I've written. Someone was using the PC. ^__^

I tend to generalize too much at times. I should change myself.

Yes, I should.

Not a very interesting day

Nothing much happened today.

Well, except for a few things.

Wednesday is Baclaran Day. Novena Day for the faithful Christians at the Redemptorist Church. Heavy volume of traffic jams and series of unfortunate accidents.

Rally along T.M. Kalaw Road. Sponsored by Bayan Muna and other party lists that are pro-poor. Would they ever stop criticizing the government?

Look, the Philippine government is now suffering a great deal. Terrorist groups (Abu Sayyaf) are now sabotaging every single effort the people made to have a better country. MNLF rebels, too. Three different bombings happened in three different cities last Valentine's Day. A business district in Makati City. A shopping mall in General Santos City. A bus terminal in Davao City. At least 7 people died and 150 were wounded. Such grief. Such terror had spread throughout the country. The least we could is to pray hard. Prayer is power, definitely.

I guess, I got swung by emotions. *shrug* Forgive me.

I arrived at school at about 11 AM. Good thing, there was no drafting classes today. Thank God.

I signed up as a marshal for the United Mapuans. I really wanted to help retain the name of Mapua Institute of Technology. Wish me luck to undergo such undertaking. I'll pray to be strong mentally and emotionally.

Alright. I'm ending the day.

~***~

My greetings to Armchair Quarterback, Take care of her okay? ^__^

~***~

Grr! What's wrong with friendster. com?! Graaah!?!

Nothing else to write. Here ^__^

The Goddess of Roses and Love. You are a hopeless
romantic. Always optimistic and loving, you
have many friends and you are exceptionally
trustworthy. You are an innocent beauty.

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a simple request

It was a black shirt day at Mapua yesterday even though it was Valentine's Day. It was a peaceful protest of the students to retain the legacy of Don Tomas Mapua. Retain the name of Mapua Institute of Technology.

A simple request to the Board of Trustees. However simple, they turned it down. "Malayan it will be," they told us.

We simply cannot accept that. We are the students of the Institute, the pioneer of the engineering field in the Philippines. We are the ones paying them. We should have a part in the decision-making process, too.

We are fighting for the legacy of the name. It is an established name here in our country and as far as I know, overseas. When applying for work here, Mapuans have an edge. Mapuans are known to have better technical abilities and skillful expertise. Mapuans have established their names here and abroad.

Putting MIT under Malayan Colleges cannot be tolerated. Mapua Institute of Technology, just a college of engineering, IT and architecture? No way! Heck, the Yuchengcos are just using us to advertise their insurance company!

Today, no one came to school. It is a boycot to the management. Today, the faculty association and the alumni association will have a meeting with Dr. Vea, President and CEO of the Institute. I hope everything will turn out peacefully.

A simple request. Retain the legacy of Don Tomas Mapua. Please.

nothing in particular

You are... The Cingulate Gyrus!!!

Snugly encircling the superior thalamus, and sitting atop the corpus callosum,
you are an integral part of the limbic system.
You remain a mystery, but common thought is that your reciprocal connections
to the frontal cortex and limbic system link decision-making and emotion!
Although you are mushy in consistency, you are a great friend to those around you
and your word is as solid as oak. You detest it when
people prod you, so you do need to lighten up a bit.
All in all, though, you are a solid citizen.
(And without you, people often find themselves unable to talk or move!)

Take the Personality Quiz, brought to you by Mr. Poon

astig! ^__^

9 more minutes before Valentines Day... *sigh*

blurb

I am a Mapuan! Never a Malayan!

^__^

terms with double meanings

1. "Mwah" means... "I Love You"

2. "Wala lang" means ... " I Love You but I'm shy"

3. "Ok ka lang" means... "Ano ka hilo?!?!"

4. "Hay nako!" means... "Seryoso ako"

5. "Ingat ka lagi" means... "I care for you"

6. "Musta na?" means.... Sino'ng love mo?"

7. "Secret" means...."Ikaw"

8. "Anong problem mo?" means.... "Hurt naman ako"

9. "Kayo pa rin ba?" means.... "Ako naman"

~***~

Scary! I hope those guys sending me text messages with these don't mean those... sheesh...

I'm becoming paranoid, I guess.

weird stuff

What is this that I feel? My heart flutters and my mind blanks out whenever I catch just a glimpse of her. What more could happen to me when she’s just inches away from me? This hard pounding in my chest could burst anytime. It’s driving me crazy. Oh, what would happen if she knew all of these things? Would she be happy if she that... if she knew that I have feelings of love for her?

Would she be happy to know who I really am? Would she accept me for who I am? No, I don’t think she would. I have seen blood from every time I accomplish my mission. These hands of mine meant to hold her with love and understanding has been tainted with guilt, sin and hatred. Yes, I know that she cannot accept me for my work, for the things that I have done, for the lies that I made out of love for her, for my painful past. She will hate me, curse me, and feel indifferent against me if she knew who I really am.

But I still love her. Nothing will change. I love her. I love her so much. I simply cannot change the will of my heart. She will remain inside me for eternity.

~***~

How tragic love can be...

bowling!

I had a good time bowling with my classmates during our P.E. class yesterday at the Robinson's Place Manila. Thanks Ate Tif for bringing me there. I wouldn't be there without you.

A national coach gave us a lecture on the game. *shrug* I have no choice but to listen.

Sheesh. I only got a score of 103. Grr... Something is wrong with my finger pressure. The ball always end up in the gutter. Oh, well. I can do better next time. Yes, the next time.

And whoa! I got home by 3:00 PM. That isn't like me.

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There is something wrong with me today. I'm having a hard time navigating through blogger.com and my ID has been locked by DoIT. Why would they lock it anyway? I haven't done anything bad.

genki_sushi now signing off... ja ne!

densetsu shiranai yo

densetsu shiranai yo

i don't know the legend.

sheesh...

Gravity would be the proper name because this is where all of it goes down.

Ciao!

for the first entry

I'm pissed off today.

Midterm exams in Sociology went sooo bad. Fill in the blanks. Enumeration. The professor was so cruel. She must be enjoying the sight of her students glistened with sweat and blood just to answer those questions.

I'm totally pissed off today.

I had a quarrel with my mom this morning. *sigh and gulp* I guess I have to swallow my pride again when I come home later.

This day is one of the worst in my life!